Private post please. Sorry for it being so long. I’m in a situation & I don’t k…

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Private post please. Sorry for it being so long.
I’m in a situation & I don’t know what to do for the better. I’ve been with my partner for 7 years. We’ve got a 20 month old & a nearly 3 week old.
December 2016 my partner told me he didn’t love me & hadn’t since the birth of our daughter in 2015. He also told me he had been seeing someone else since our daughter was 6 month old. This absolutely broke me. The next day, I found out I was pregnant. I had a miscarriage 2 months before. (I was on protection but something failed)
He told me clearly to have an abortion because he didn’t want another baby due to not enjoying being a father. I got so close to having the abortion. But I couldn’t do it.
We then agreed to work on things. For our little ones. It’s been extremely hard, he doesn’t help out at all with our kids. He gets very angry with them. He refuses to talk to me when I try. If I try to much he gets so nasty with it all.
But now our newborn is here. I can’t help but hate him for making me consider giving her up. He won’t feed her, change her. So I’m dealing with both of them alone. I’m not getting much sleep because our older daughter has a medical condition which can keep her up all night. Then I’m up feeding our newborn who has reflux. 😭 What are my best options here? I hate him, but if I think of leaving him, it kills me because I love him. How do I talk to him without him being an ass? Is it all to late to save our relationship because of what’s gone on? 😔
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