Can I get a PP please? And no judging please. Me and my boyfriend moved in toget…

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Can I get a PP please? And no judging please.
Me and my boyfriend moved in together April last year. Everything was going well until I had a miscarriage and had to have a D&C as baby wasn’t coming away naturally. Since then, our sex life fell back a lot, although still once a week or two. A few days ago though I found my boyfriend had watched porn. I told him that it hurt me and that I understood why he watched it but that it hurt as I’m insecure already and if he wanted to watch it then to not do it on MY laptop, but yesterday I told him how I truly felt, it felt like he had cheated on me. Being intimate like that should be between us, and him looking at other women in that way has really upset me. He said that he was only watching for the blowjobs as I don’t give them to him very often (I was sexually assaulted a few years ago and blowjobs can be uncomfortable for me). I made him a promise that I would do them more often and try to make more effort for him. But I can’t shake this horrible feeling of the betrayal I feel of him watching it. The fact that he lied to me in the past by saying he never watched it. I love him more than anything and I wouldn’t be the person I am now if he hadn’t been there to help me but somehow it’s me trying to make him happy when it should be him trying to make it up to me… I don’t know where I am going with this post but I just needed to get that off my chest. And I know some people watch porn, before anybody says anything about that.
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