Can i have a private post please, due to have mine and my partners baby over the…

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Can i have a private post please, due to have mine and my partners baby over the next few weeks this is my 5 th pregnancy had really difficult pregnancys my first daughter was poorly due to lack of water small weight stomach and hyperemisis when I even collapsed half way down the stairs and nearly lost her. My partner at the time was badly abusive he nocked me unconscious when I was pregnant and phoned a ambulance telling them resulting in social services getting involved him kicking of at the birth and social services nearly takin my daughter at two days old I (despite me never changing her) fell pregnant quite quickly while we were both working with the social and he decided to meet someone else and get her pregnant to I went through the entire pregnancy alone and he came in trying to punch me in my stomach sayin hel drag her out of me because shd was ruining his relationship due to all the stress I fell extremely poorly started getting complications and had to be induced at 34 weeks due to her being in distress I spent the entire labour alone scared and no one there and when shd was born he ran to the social services and made up so much stuff they didn’t let me take my baby home for a month. I sat day after day by myself fighting the social at the side of her. I got all control back and moved away with my kids and met my fiancé. We fell pregnant i was completely nervous we were having a little boy we agreed his mum could come to the birth it’ was her first grandchild everything went better until in labour at 34 weeks we went to the hospital and found out he’d passed away I was 3 cm and my life was at risk I was internally bleeding and because of my low iorn I had to go through it Al naturally bringing him into this world and can’t remember much after it because of how poorly I was before havin my blood transfusions. After a year we tried again and at the time I really wasn’t getting on with my partners mum at all and he told me he wanted her there he needed her there and it caused alot of arguments eventually I gave in because I thought it couldn’t have been nice watching your first grandchild being born like he was and put my feelings aside to think of them. The whole way through she moaned how the baby wasn’t here yet how she had work put status after status about how there was Stil no baby and even told the midwife not to give me pain relief because it would slow the labour down she tod my partner it would so he was going on and on and I eventually said fine I spent 20 hours in labour on codine because of that until I got to 8 cm I even got moaned at about how long I was taking to push her head out when she was born my mil walked out after lookin at her ans said she didn’t feel like she did towards her grandson my daughter had breathing difficulties and got rushed down to nicu poorly and my placenta got stuck I got stuck on the bed waiting for surgery for 3 hours not noin if she was alive OK what she weighed what she looked like the lot because of how quickly she left she didn’t no until we phoned her later . So now I’m on my final child completely shock. I’m coming up to 33 weeks and iv never gone past 35 iv told my partner because it’s my last child and all the drama iv had and this is the first time I havnt found out the sex I want it my way iv said I want it to be him and me and that’s it that I want it to be him to tell me Wether the baby is a boy or girl want to enjoy it I want to just experience it together, at first he called me selfish we had a huge row then he agreed and said fine that was weeks ago. Today he’s started hinting at his mum coming and how he would like the support there and he would want someone there because I’m normally out of it and it’s stressful for him, I understand watching me go through that is hard and he struggles but i sat and tried to explain and it got a bit heated I don’t no how we havnt managed to have a blazing row because he’s said how if it’d his last child jis mum will miss everything because she’s not been to one scan and how even if his mum isn’t there his sister could come iv tried to explain how this should really be what I want iv facilitated everyone else above myself ovef and over and i do deserve tjis time to be respected. He said ok but u jus no for a fact it isn’t the end I said it’s a bit selfish to say how whag he needs and what he wants and he’s saying it’s a long day and it’s difficult when I go into active labour because he can’t even speak to me and how he struggles after everything and would like some support so I no it isn’t the end I feel like he’s jus goin to tell someone to come down and it will ruin my last and final pregnancy how do I do this without arguing with him or coming out to be a massive dick I jus want a nice experience sorry for the long post
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