Hey can I have a post please, bit of a random one and not looking for advice sp…

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Hey 😊 can I have a post please, bit of a random one and not looking for advice specifically mostly just want to hear people stories (suggestions more than welcome haha). Also sorry it’s so long, needed to vent aswell haha

Basically have any of you ever just completely turned your life around? If so how? I feel like no matter what I do or how hard I try I just keep getting knocked down.

I had my son young, pregnant at 15 gave birth just after turning 16 and didn’t leave school until just under 2 weeks to my due date. Pretty much as soon as I returned from hospital I carried on with school work at home whilst adjusting to being a mum and at 2 months old he went to a childminder so I could finish school and get my GCSEs. I did bloody good considering circumstances. I was raped when he was 3 months old and it came out whilst I did a-levels so I had to deal with court cases etc which I lost (was my sons dad so for me it made it so much harder to deal with) it was too much and I failed them. In this time i had also moved out into a mother baby unit. I ended up getting thrown out because I didn’t comply with their rules. They expected people to do cooking classes with them and cleaning classes, certain activities etc but I was still in education! I got the bus at 6am with my son and didn’t get back til 7-8 in the evening! I was the first person there to remain in education after having a child and instead of them working with me I got thrown out! They also called social services and tried to accuse me of child abuse and child neglect which social shut down very quickly and said it was a malicious report! So anyway i was homeless! Found myself a house private rented as soon as I turned 18. I then did an access to higher education course but my nan ended up with terminal cancer and because of how close we were I couldn’t cope and again I failed my course. I then did another course but my benefits got cut right before christmas so I had to move onto the evening course and look for work which made finding time for my course really difficult (although I passed it this time haha). In this time I had to move house again because the house I lived in was falling apart and the landlord refused to fix it. I tried to start a business but that failed due to finances so I got myself a job in healthcare and it’s been going really well! Up until about a week ago! My boss said I can no longer stay on my contract (30hrs) and will be moved onto 0 hrs and my pay rate is going down. I loved my part in this job because finances were secure and it will one day lead to nursing. Now I’ve been moved onto 0 hrs with lower pay rate I’m scared about how money will be affected and have already started looking for other jobs that pay the bills. Plus this house is now falling apart, everything here is breaking (cooker shower tumble dryer etc, every time we have a shower it leaked downstaira) my partner works nights so there’s only so much he can help with. He wants me to succeed in getting into nursing but we’re very much aware that bills etc must come first! I’m just so fed up of trying hard, working my arse off and getting nowhere! It’s been 7 years since I had my little one and no matter how hard I’ve tried I’ve not accomplished anything for him! I’m determined not to give up but can’t get out if this rut!

Has anyone else felt like this and found a way out? How long did it take? What did you have to do? I just want to feel proud of what I have and what I’ve done but every time I start to get somewhere I get knocked back 😕

Sorry it’s so long xx
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